I think I need to explain again.

Hello, I bet you've not seen this for a while? How long has it been, now? I don't know, I just know it's been too long.

(By the way, Rule Of Rose spoilers at the end... Kind of.. It's only a picture, but I don't want to get accused of spoiling the game for you. So yeah, I warned- SmileyFace)

Anyway, I need to explain why I haven't been posting anything at all recently. I mean, I'm not even going on Blogger anymore. You know, I used to go on it everyday and be excited to see that another few people went on my blog. Well, it's not that I've lost interest or anything because I still love doing.. This!
The problem is all the stress and problems I've been having.
I mean, I am going into Y11 this year. Yeah, and that's where serious stuff happens and I, to be truly honest, am scared. I am terrified of what could happen and I am scared that I won't do good enough. Really, I am seriously scared.

Also, to add onto the stress I have my family business. Yeah, I can't believe that I used to think that family were supposed to make you feel good and everything because I've realised that it's a load of lies.

In addition, I've been feeling like I have no friends or anything. I mean, the only reason as for why I think this is because my phone broke a week ago and no one even bothered to talk to me.. So, I've been feeling kinda shitty. I mean, come on, I have good reasons not to be writing, haven't I?

Anyway, I've been trying to cheer myself up with Youtubers and anime.
It's working.
Kinda.

Yeah, but the anime I watched the other day was called "Another" and you really ought to watch it! It's really good! It's about a pretty cool, but weird, curse. Sadly, they only have series one. Well, as far as I know there is only a series one. However, I really do suggest you watch it. I mean, it's really interesting and it have a pretty cool twist to it.

Also, I've been playing a game called Rule Of Rose (RoR) and I hate it so much. I mean, the story is actually really good, that will always come first with me, but the game play comes second and it's the game play that's so horrible and it ends up ruining the story. However, now that I've played it and I no longer have the stress of playing that, I can now see how brilliant and perfect the game is and how much I love the story. Also, it's a really fucked up game. I mean, I think that there are probably worse ones, but this game is all the way up there with The Cat Lady.
However, dear future developers, DON'T WASTE ALL YOUR FUNDINGS BEFORE YOU'VE FINISHED THE GAME PLAY AND STORY!
That is all :)

S'yeah.
See you.

Cerys x

Sorry, but here's my explanation.

Okay, I actually have most of my June Favourites saved as a draft. However, I just lost interest whilst writing it so I've not finished. I get that it's almost August and I am due to be doing the July Favourites soon, but I will (hopefully) do that one on time!

Anyway, my excuse is my lovely little niece (you remember the post) because I've been visiting her almost every single day since the summer holidays and I obviously couldn't do the post during school time due to coursework and stuff.

Also, I am ashamed to admit this but, when I wasn't visiting my beautiful niece I was watching Super Natural. I am sorry, but I love that show and I've probably wasted at least 2 weeks of my life just watching this show with perfect men in.

I mean, come on, this picture is just unfair. Look at how perfect Jensen Ackles is. Do you see why I couldn't stop watching the series?
Also, the show is actually really good and I love the story lines and the characters and I adore to see how they react to certain things and the things that they are scared of and the things that they would die for (Sammy....) and all that sort of stuff.

Also, it's a nice escape from my life. You know, I've been feeling down and my niece cheers me up with her huge grin when she sees me and this show distracts me from the fact that I really dislike things in my life and the stuff that goes on around me and I'm not going to go into detail about it.

Anyway, sorry for the delay but I should be finishing it off before this day ends.

Day 30.

Day 30.

Okay, this picture is just to show all of this month. I mean, this month has been one of the best and one of the worst at the same time. But, I loved doing this challenge. I mean, I've never done anything like it; I've never had to write a story along with my image. Usually, when I write with my image I say what I did to edit (I took photography in school) but I've never had to take a picture that would have some sort of story behind it.

I mean, I get that my stories weren't great, but my first few I really tried to make those interesting.

Okay, so my favourite post, by far, has to be Day 3. I mean, it was the day I met my baby niece and I, to be honest, really liked my 'future letter'. Plus, that was a first for me; I've never even thought about doing a letter to a younger person in my family.

Also, I really liked my Day 16 post because I really liked the image, mainly. I liked how it was accidentally taken with the flash and made my dads face blanked out, which made it more accurate and personal, due to the fact that I don't have many images of my father and "I've got a picture in my room, of a man that I wish I knew" sort of thing. I mean, I liked it. I like how it's  blanked face and how it can suggest that it's a face I've forgotten.

Anyway, today is the last day for this and I enjoyed it an awful lot.

I might do another one of these sort of things but a little different.

Love, 

Cerys x

Ps: The June favourite will be written soon.

Day 29.

Day 29.

I was going to make a post saying how I went to go visit my little niece, again, but I forgot my camera. So, here is my dog. She is an ugly dog but she is an animal who is there, you know? Now, it's not really related to what I said a second ago (baby) but, I've said before about how I've been ill, well, this ugly thing (just kidding, she's beautiful <3) has always supported me and, even though she's a dog, she does help.

Family don't end with blood

-Bobby.

Love, 

Cerys x

Day 28.

Day 28.

I have been creative, lately. I mean, I started working up to my dream of being a writer (I am up to chapter 3 on that!) and I decided that I wanted to show a little bit more of my creative side. In fact, I've been really freaking creative, haven't I? Yeah, but I designed some dresses. They've probably been made, but that's not the point. The point is that I am showing my artistic side that I was certain that I never had.
Therefore, my confidence is going up because I am showing that I can do things that I've always doubted myself on.

Love, 

Cerys x

Day 27.

Day 27.

I'm still ill and I need tissues, now. I hate being ill. Oh, and I forgot to mention, I was off yesterday. Everyone thought that I was off just for the sake of it.

Oh, I wish I was; when my friend rang me she shut up about me 'skyving' when I struggled to speak and breathe and she told everyone how ill I was.

Darn right, I'm ill!

Yeah, but I'm still ill and I don't like it.

On the plus side, I get lots of ice lollies (go to Day 26 for explanation).

It gets better, I promise.

Love,

Cerys x

Day 26.

Day 26.

I've been ill. I didn't like it. My throat was all swollen and I couldn't breathe properly. My throat is still killing me. 

Now, how is a lolly associated with this? Well, once a lolly saved me because I had an allergic reaction to an almond and my throat got all swollen and I couldn't breathe (at all) and my mum gave me a lolly to soothe the swelling and it worked. So, lesson learned there, no almonds and lollies save lives. In fact, they have saved my life twice because I once woke up in the middle of the night unable to breathe and I ran to the freezer (I don't know why but I told my brother I couldn't breathe, he told my mum and I went to find a lolly) and I just ate a lolly. My mum was panicking and I was panicking but in the end, me eating a lolly slowly allowed me to breathe out. I still don't know what happened that day. I couldn't breathe out. I could breathe in as much as much as I wanted I just could breathe out and, as a child, I was truly terrified. To be honest, I no longer get scared when I cannot breathe properly; we always have lollies in the freezer for my sudden breathing problems.

Wait, from the sounds of this, do I have asthma?

Anyway, the lolly saved me, again.

Thank you, frozen beverage.

Love, 

Cerys x